mellow morning....

when i woke up this morning....
it was 6am...my cellphone alarm rang...
the rain outside was so fucking heavy.... like cats and dog they said...
but i actualy get up from bed around 6.12am....
get up get my towel, stare at the window.... "there no way they work today...." i said...
take my shirt off, pull my pants down, wraped d towel around me waist and walked to the bathroom....
take a leak, brush my teeth, take a normal morning shower...
out from d bathroom, dry up n dress up.... text my hime "ohaiyo sayang.."
still felll normal though...
get out from my house around 6.37am... stop by at Shell, to get some gas and to buy a news paper
"borneo post ya ka?" i asked d counter guy...
"bukan... sinchew, mmm paper cina...." he said...
"wokey...." i said ("what d fuck!! u sell chinese paper n not borneo post???? ur so stupid man!!! i kill u man!!")
i start to feel somthg wrong....
i drove, stop at a kedai runcit to get my Borneo post...
its saturday, not much care going to Tg Kidurong... easy driving while listening to "stairway to heaven"....
arive at my yard a.k.a office at 7.03am
now i feel reaaaaaalllly shitty!!!
rain still pouring, dont know whether we just gonna stanby or go home...
step into my cabin, set up my lappy....check my emails, facebook, naruto community web.... "WTF!!!! theres no latest naruto and bleach issues??!!! come on man!! over a week alredy, i wana see how naruto fight pain n how ichigo succumb the no 3 espada, i kill who ever do this!!!"
getting even shittier......
then start to complete the workforce report for our main-con which is due month ago...
shit!shit!shit!
then our unreliable safety supervisor greets me wit his usual annoying way
"USSS!!! HAHAHA... sik pegi nitrogent plant kaktok!! hehehe...."
"klak skit kali...." i replied, then he come to my desk... watching me writing down d report....
he said "workforce tok klak brik ngn adam sim, muu....",
"tauk ku.... aku gik molah tok..." i reply back (ur so fucking annoying dude!!! its not like i never done dis bfore!!! worry ur own stuff!!! i kill u man!!!)
done!!! fin!! finite!! and still raining.... aderusu is accumulating negative aura....
my senior engineer just arived, its 7.40 somthing!!! (fuck u man....ur late, i know its raining outside...not like ur riding motorcycle???!!! i will killl u man!!!)
around 7.50am he went for a meeting and said somthg...
"aku kuar ngn lan lok, mungkin sampe noon, mun tepon bunyi, tolong angkat..."
"hmmmm alrite...." really moody answer...
ok....i do my stuff, rearrange the documents in the file...
then d irritating safety supervisor came near me and said...
"USSSS!! (stop calling me wit dat tone u shithead!!! or i kill u!!!)... sham suroh ko polah claim pake workers d n2 plant....nah radio....nya mok tlaka ngn kau...."
(whut???)"ok....sham masok sham..."(talking with wlakie talkie)
"gohed!!!...", "ko carik aku ka? pahal?", "ada nak nok d copy ko marek... isikan brp org worker stanby kat n2 plant skali ngn kenny (our work leader), pake claim stanby kita kt cnun ngn dak PFCE....mintak sain adam sim klak....", "ok, ok, bleh... kaktok ku g sia....."
grab my hard-hat, safety -glass and my MLNG pass, get in d car, start it, get movin'....
after i registered to enter the plant, i walked to the site.... what a shitty day, sky was so gloomy, so sombre, so sad....plus my mood is soo shitty!!!
i went to kenny the workleader and said...
"wei... balit jak ktkorg, sik payah stanby.... ko ada ngr pa pdh sham lam radio tek nak?"
"aaa....h pahal?" he replied, sometime this guy really pisses me off...
"jd.... ko molah ka aku molah?.... tulis jak, klak aku antar kat adam...."
"aih... ya bukan keja aku................................."
in my heart im realy realy realy realy realy pissed when he said dat.....
and i answered back "cibai kau juak!!! ney form ya!!!" (FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! fuck you man.... how dare u said dat to me while im in this shitty mood.... i'll kill u!!!!)
i took d form from him and walk away to d guard post, refer d namelist wrote down there name to the form..... n exiting the plant.... wait in d car, then the water from d sky pouring like crazy again....wait.... it just for 10 min or so.... what kind of rain was dat???
on off on off on off on off on........off......
10am.... go back to yard.... they gona work afterall.....
hav a ciggy.... continue doing things at office....
suprisingly d senior engineer was there... thought he wud be out till noon....whatever....
he asked me to do evrytg, since his new elected asistant was on a NIOSH safety course.....
im pisssed, n become even more pissssssed!!!! keep calllins me....
"deruss....derusss ctok lok...." like he can bossing me around, he is so lazy to get off from his chair dat he asked me to do everythg.... scan, copy, reheat d water, find things he lost (he lost it, which eventually found underneath a compiled paper of an organized desk!!), get file etc.....
(Fuck you!! u lazy fat piece of shit!!! i'll kill u!!!)
then my hime called... i answered, n told her i got things to do.... she said ok, she wanna text then... i said ok... so we text...
mu hime somehow know there somting wrong wit me, my morning mood swing..... she try to comfort me, and i know how much she care of me as i for her.... then she text somthg like to cheer up n asked me to read her blog....
must b a new post, i think... i open her blog n read the latest one........
n i smile... soooo wide, my bigest smile since 6 o'clock in the morning..... i kept reading....
im stilll smiling... and on one part, i touched....dat my heart hurt... im so happy....
my sweet hime can turn the negative dark aura of me into a sweet afternoon at bavarian mountain slope in the spring time, where bird chirping, d flowers blooming, wind blow softly, the grass is green.......edeh!!! i love my hime....

p/s in total, i've imagine killing human being seven time this morning.....HAHAHAHAHA.....

PEACE....

for the glorious dead!!!!

"hail for the glorious dead!!!"
dats what the rohan cried after the battle of helms deep.... u wud noticed it if u watched lord of the rings... "watched"!! i mean really watched it... really into it... live it! love it! obsesed it... when u start mumbling monologues from the film.... dats it... ur in it man... welcome to the fellowship...

dat was supose to be my opening speech... wat an idiot i am...

well... i know ive a lot of things to say...in my heart or my mind... there always somthg wrong with things around me dat just....wrong! folly! hypocryte! underated! overated! blablablabla.......this thing usualy kept just for me.... my precioussss.....there i go again!!!

i like to criticize films, cause i used to post film reviews in friensters bulletin, n people dont realy read it, i know..i know, cause theres no comment...just a couple people do so....stupid people, i make a decent review u know!!.... other then films, i do manga, anime, album, music, bands, books etc....

then my hime sugested me to blog it...express all she said, it helps, it gud thing for ur self esteem or somthg like dat... so i thought, why not?
sooooo.... i will write bout film reviews, critics (its not gona work if im still in bintulu, the cinema here is sooo damn....lambat!! i misses most gud movies dat run in time...!!!!), people around me (dat pisses me or dat make me laughed), things around me, my shitty work here in bintulu or whatever cross my mind, could be something idiotic!!.... who cares, sincerely its not for anyone....

HAIL!!!!